Monday was my 37th birthday.
Yup. That happened.
It was a REALLY good day. Super lowkey, filled with rain and sweets… Just like I like it!!!
I think I’m actually ready for all the change we are preparing for!
Usually, I… don’t dread my birthday… But I’m definitely usually not excited for it. Not because I’m not grateful to be a year older… I always am SO grateful for that. But usually I just look at all the things I haven’t accomplished (yet) and I start hearing that clock tick, tick, ticking away… I usually feel like I’m running out of time to… be a successful adult.
But this year, I looked forward to my day a little more.
Am I exactly where I thought I would be at 37??
NOPE, no where even close…
Am I where I am SUPPOSED to be at 37???
YUPPERS!!! I really think I am!
Somewhere along the line, I finally stopped (or mostly stopped) comparing myself to others.
I mean… My life is completely different than most of the friends I grew up with. So, while they all own huge houses, have 3 1/2 kids and 2 dogs… Kenni and I are all… “Ummmmm… Sure… why not start trying to have a baby at 37 and 38 years old!! So what that our kid is going to be 8-10 and in some cases 14 years younger than most of our close friends’ babies. We have built in babysitters!!!!! *insert unbothered shrug emoji*”
2018 has been SUPER good to us so far so I think the decision to wait (which really wasn’t a decision but just happened) was the absolute right one for us.
So. It seems as though everything was in place as I rang in my 37th year. Hopefully by my next birthday we will be celebrating with Juju in one way or another… And I say that completely prayerfully. We will see…
And Juju Update:
I have an appointment with a new midwife in 2 weeks. I am REALLY trying to go the midwife route for my IUI, at least try it out for a couple of cycles, before we go the RE route. This one really gets in your ass about your diet and all the things that promote successful IUI… which is what I need. My blood work came back really good but I don’t want to leave anything to chance.
Here’s to my 37th year!!!!!
*I would say my wish out loud but we all know that’s a no-no*