Gettin’ Older… Nah… Only Better

So…

Monday was my 37th birthday.

Yup. That happened.

It was a REALLY good day. Super lowkey, filled with rain and sweets… Just like I like it!!!

I think I’m actually ready for all the change we are preparing for!

Usually, I… don’t dread my birthday… But I’m definitely usually not excited for it.  Not because I’m not grateful to be a year older… I always am SO grateful for that. But usually I just look at all the things I haven’t accomplished (yet) and I start hearing that clock tick, tick, ticking away… I usually feel like I’m running out of time to… be a successful adult.

But this year, I looked forward to my day a little more.

Am I exactly where I thought I would be at 37??

NOPE, no where even close…

Am I where I am SUPPOSED to be at 37???

YUPPERS!!! I really think I am!

Somewhere along the line, I finally stopped (or mostly stopped) comparing myself to others.

I mean… My life is completely different than most of the friends I grew up with. So, while they all own huge houses, have 3 1/2 kids and 2 dogs… Kenni and I are all… “Ummmmm… Sure… why not start trying to have a baby at 37 and 38 years old!! So what that our kid is going to be 8-10 and in some cases 14 years younger than most of our close friends’ babies. We have built in babysitters!!!!! *insert unbothered shrug emoji*”

2018 has been SUPER good to us so far so I think the decision to wait (which really wasn’t a decision but just happened) was the absolute right one for us.

So. It seems as though everything was in place as I rang in my 37th year. Hopefully by my next birthday we will be celebrating with Juju in one way or another… And I say that completely prayerfully. We will see…

And Juju Update:

I have an appointment with a new midwife in 2 weeks. I am REALLY trying to go the midwife route for my IUI, at least try it out for a couple of cycles, before we go the RE route. This one really gets in your ass about your diet and all the things that promote successful IUI… which is what I need. My blood work came back really good but I don’t want to leave anything to chance.

Anyway…

Here’s to my 37th year!!!!!

*I would say my wish out loud but we all know that’s a no-no*

 

 

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Let’s Take It From The Top…

Yo…

It’s been a crazy couple of months…

I know I’ve slacked off on the posting but life has been… full of surprises.

We have finally made a decision on what to do moving forward with Kenni’s fibroid surgery…

Since apparently the doctor doesn’t recommend attempting any fertility treatments for at least 3 months after her surgery… and she probably won’t even get into surgery before September/October… which pushes our timeline back to AT LEAST January/February…

We have decided that I’m going to go ahead with iui/ivf while we wait on Kenni to have the surgery and recover.

Yup… That’s happening…

A TOTAL change of plans!!!

We just figured… since we both planned on carrying at some point (we have a very optimistic plan to have 2 before we’re 40)… why wait if we don’t absolutely HAVE to. There’s 2 of us, so let’s just keep the baby train moving!!!!

We’re headed to Vegas next week for a work trip but once we get back I have to make all the appointments with the RE to see my options. My AMH is really good so I’m still leaning toward at home iui with the midwife we’ve chosen but if an RE can get me preggers faster… we may have to go that route. Its honestly like starting all over again because we thought we had time for me *insert laughing and shrug emojis*, but… Nope.

I do feel a little bad for Kenni because she really wanted to go ahead and try for it. And she knows I’m a little nervous to do this… I think she feels a little guilty.

I keep trying to reassure her that her health is SO important. These fibroids have been taking over her life for WAY too long. I just want to see her completely healthy and happy, without having week long hospital stays every couple of years for blood transfusions. That is the WORST.

I also want to see her not dread her period so bad that she’s in tears because she knows she’s going to lose soooooo much blood and may need a transfusion after. That is NO way to live and I want more for my wife than that. Much more.

So… Lets get that bullshit OUT!!!

It’s not cool to have random things in your abdomen just chillin’ there and stealing your blood. If you don’t have to… why live that way???

So… I’m going to woman up and take the dive first!!!!

I’m excited and nervous at the same time.

I have a few pregnancy phobias that I’ll tell y’all about later… But I’m not about to let those stand in our way.

Once Kenni is healthy and given the go ahead then we will go ahead and finish what we started with her.

That’s one of the advantages to being in a lesbian marriage. We got 2 uterus (what’s the plural of uterus???? Uteri??? Uteruseses??? *shug*)!!!!!!

Anyway… like I said… Vegas in 10 days, so we will not think about this and relax by the pool with a drank and eat out, gamble… a little.

Then we will come home refreshed and hopefully a little less stressed about this!

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